Well day 1 went by in a hurry and (no surprise) it was a great day!
I do operate best under strict parameters. I like organization, lists and routines.
This morning I weighed 183.8
Up about 10 lbs from my weight when I finished round 1 just over a month ago.
Impressive weight gain I'd say :)
Food for the day:
2 glasses of warm water with lemon
egg sauteed in coconut oil
fajita salad w/ cashew sour cream, salsa
apple with almond butter
blackened mahi mahi w/ sweet potato, Brussels sprouts and carrots
Exercise:
Treadmill, Week 1 Day 1 of Couch to 5K app.
Ran at 5 mph, walked at 4
I found I wanted to run a little more than just the one minute at a time but oddly, my hips seemed to be hurting a lot which is unusual.
I'll see how it goes as the month progresses
Finished off with practicing ONE yoga move (i'm terrible) and 90 seconds of wall sits (so painful)
Thoughts/emotional:
I feel very productive today. I prepped chicken taco meat for salads later on, I've got dinner leftovers, made dump ranch, hard boiled some eggs, cleaned the kitchen, did two loads of dishes and cleaned my shower lol. (it's the small victories!)
I took time this afternoon to read a little, I even found time to take a nap.
I do feel like I was on the brink of a headache for most of the afternoon. I tried to keep it in check by drinking lots of water. I'm hoping the typical Whole 30 timeline doesn't affect me either as last time I didn't experience any of the negative detox symptoms.
I truly LOVED my last experience with the Whole 30, it gave me a huge sense of accomplishment and pride in my ability to do HARD things :)
I'm expecting this round to be at least as wonderful.
Friday, January 1, 2016
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
Drastic Changes
In November, just before Thanksgiving, I finished a crazy 30 day No grain, No Sugar, No Dairy, No Legume/bean/anything I used to eat diet. It was entirely life consuming but completely eye opening at the same time. You see, over the last however many months (years probably), I'd become more and more aware of the atrocities within our food system (food is just the tip of the iceberg if I'm being honest, but that's all I'll delve into at this point).
I realized I needed to make a change. Starting with what I ate. The problem, however, was that dietary change doesn't come easily after 30+ years. Enter the Whole 30. To me, it serves as a radical way to get started with unprocessing my life so I can reach my happy place...
When you cut off the poison and addiction of dairy and grains and SUGAR and fill your body with food that's healthy for you, it's easier to think clearly and just life your life. Did you know that sugar is 8x more addictive than cocaine!?
I try not to tell people just how crazy I am or how passionate I feel about where our food system has taken us. It seems silly and completely crazy to tell someone you hardly know that no you can't have that pretzel or m&m because you aren't eating sugar (trust me, almost everything has added sugar at this point). Or that you pretty much can't eat any any restaurant because they all have added something to their food that simply doesn't need to be there.
I'm doing this for my own good. That being said, if I can help one person care a little more about where our society is headed or how they take care of themselves, then I'll be proud of myself and feel like I've fulfilled at least one of my life's missions. I'd like to do it for myself, my kids, my family.
Starting January 1st, I'll be embarking again on the NO SUGAR, NO DAIRY, NO GRAIN, NO BEAN/LEGUME path for an entire month. I've done it before and quite honestly, I was ready for it and I actually enjoyed it.
Why do something this crazy you ask?
The reality is that I'm becoming a little granola...
I want to be more conscious, compassionate and informed regarding how I live my life. I want to live a lighter footprint and focus on being the best person I can be. I have ZERO clue where I'll land but I honestly feel like I've had an awakening and as a result, I can't continue to live the way I have.
I can't be perfect. I'm not sure anyone can. At this point, I'm hoping to live within an acceptable range... a sort of invisible bottom line regarding where I'm not willing to go (no red meat) and hopefully as I get better and better, I'll continue to increase my bottom line while continuing to live within my acceptable range. Ideally, my bottom line will be at the very least vegetarian. I'd like to stay as far away from my bottom line as possible so I'm hoping to be plant based vegan for the most part :) hopefully this makes sense.
There are really so many things I want to say but I don't want to come across as being completely nuts so I'll slowly go into things as they come up. It's more about being aware, knowing the facts and making decisions for yourself with what you're willing to tolerate. For me, right now in my life, I need to focus on the last 30+ years of what I've put into my body and deal with those issues before I can increase my bottom line.
My goal for this Whole 30 will be to focus on veggies and foods from the earth. I will rely to an extent on chicken and fish and eggs... but after 30 days I'm hoping to swap the chicken and eggs for beans/legumes and see how that goes.
I realized I needed to make a change. Starting with what I ate. The problem, however, was that dietary change doesn't come easily after 30+ years. Enter the Whole 30. To me, it serves as a radical way to get started with unprocessing my life so I can reach my happy place...
When you cut off the poison and addiction of dairy and grains and SUGAR and fill your body with food that's healthy for you, it's easier to think clearly and just life your life. Did you know that sugar is 8x more addictive than cocaine!?
I try not to tell people just how crazy I am or how passionate I feel about where our food system has taken us. It seems silly and completely crazy to tell someone you hardly know that no you can't have that pretzel or m&m because you aren't eating sugar (trust me, almost everything has added sugar at this point). Or that you pretty much can't eat any any restaurant because they all have added something to their food that simply doesn't need to be there.
Starting January 1st, I'll be embarking again on the NO SUGAR, NO DAIRY, NO GRAIN, NO BEAN/LEGUME path for an entire month. I've done it before and quite honestly, I was ready for it and I actually enjoyed it.
Why do something this crazy you ask?
The reality is that I'm becoming a little granola...
I want to be more conscious, compassionate and informed regarding how I live my life. I want to live a lighter footprint and focus on being the best person I can be. I have ZERO clue where I'll land but I honestly feel like I've had an awakening and as a result, I can't continue to live the way I have.
I can't be perfect. I'm not sure anyone can. At this point, I'm hoping to live within an acceptable range... a sort of invisible bottom line regarding where I'm not willing to go (no red meat) and hopefully as I get better and better, I'll continue to increase my bottom line while continuing to live within my acceptable range. Ideally, my bottom line will be at the very least vegetarian. I'd like to stay as far away from my bottom line as possible so I'm hoping to be plant based vegan for the most part :) hopefully this makes sense.
There are really so many things I want to say but I don't want to come across as being completely nuts so I'll slowly go into things as they come up. It's more about being aware, knowing the facts and making decisions for yourself with what you're willing to tolerate. For me, right now in my life, I need to focus on the last 30+ years of what I've put into my body and deal with those issues before I can increase my bottom line.
Obviously, I'm a work in progress... but the beauty of it is that I'm enjoying the process.
I am learning to be happy at each step of this journey and be grateful for the health I have.
I'm thankful that I have the curiosity and commitment to see my goals through.
It might sound odd, but I look forward to becoming more granola...
When Did I Become So Granola?!
I've been torn for SO long, fighting an inner turmoil that I'm not sure how to appease. First off, there's the girl I've known for 30 years who didn't ask questions and just followed the norm... But lately, there's this inner spirit that's really wanting to get out... I've started to open my eyes and see that it's ok to not keep up with the Jones's, to actually struggle with things and want to seek a broader calling and chart your own path in the world. Isn't that what life is really all about? Finding a mission, a purpose and stepping out of our comfort zone to maximize who you feel you are meant to be?! Over the last few years, I've kept pretty quiet about the journey my soul has been on... I wasn't sure until recently what it was that has caused this sudden concern and I can't necessarily pinpoint it to one specific thing. In reality, it's the larger idea of...
becoming granola.
...Really granola.
There, I said it. Now that it's out there, you can't unsee it. The words are permanent and I'll continue to move forward (oftentimes with two steps back) until I'm happy where I am or I'm out of time.
This is where you politely (but quickly) click the X at the top right corner and pretend it was an accident and walk away because this is where it's going to get odd and there's nothing wrong with things exactly the way they are now...(If you're lucky, maybe at the end I'll show you the tent we made out of tree bark and the hair brushes we fashioned out of pine needles... just kidding, that totally won't happen.)
I know that a lot of the things I'll say are going to sound crazy. That's ok, I'm fine being the crazy person you know that seems a little off.. But aren't those the best kinds of people to know!? I don't think I'm any kind of alarmist or doomsday prepper and please don't call mental health thinking I've gone off the deep end. In fact, I'm going to say it's quite the opposite (even if it's just in my head)... I feel clear and free and connected, more so than ever before.
As I become more and more granola, I'm becoming more and more of who I want to be. The person I believe I'm meant to be. There are so many big ideas swirling in my head that I decided to start a blog so I can get them out on paper.
I guess I've always known I was different. I remember being reminded to put on lipstick to give my face some color. I never was good at worrying about how I looked or how others looked. It seemed like such a trivial thing to worry about. Quite honestly, I still feel that way. All I think people really need to know about is what's inside. Why we're so wrapped up in vanity I'll never understand. I know that's crazy and not mainstream, but I'm happy like that! I think as I grow, I'm learning more and more that I have a strong desire to be rooted and connected and grounded with the earth and nature. But with that feeling comes the turmoil that I'm inevitably feeling... I sure enjoy sipping hot chocolate or a white mocha while perusing Target during the holidays! But as time goes on, more and more of what I want out of life is no longer a tangible object or possession. It's meaning and experiences and warm fuzzy feelings. Everyday when I'm walking to school to pick up the girls, I get the feeling that my heart is going to beat out of my chest with complete and overwhelming love, wanting desperately to see the very beings that give me so much joy and purpose in life. Even as I walk, I think about how corny that is. We've only been apart since the morning, but it's another day gone, they're another day older and it's time we just can't get back. It's a daily reminder to enjoy every moment.
becoming granola.
...Really granola.
There, I said it. Now that it's out there, you can't unsee it. The words are permanent and I'll continue to move forward (oftentimes with two steps back) until I'm happy where I am or I'm out of time.
This is where you politely (but quickly) click the X at the top right corner and pretend it was an accident and walk away because this is where it's going to get odd and there's nothing wrong with things exactly the way they are now...(If you're lucky, maybe at the end I'll show you the tent we made out of tree bark and the hair brushes we fashioned out of pine needles... just kidding, that totally won't happen.)
I know that a lot of the things I'll say are going to sound crazy. That's ok, I'm fine being the crazy person you know that seems a little off.. But aren't those the best kinds of people to know!? I don't think I'm any kind of alarmist or doomsday prepper and please don't call mental health thinking I've gone off the deep end. In fact, I'm going to say it's quite the opposite (even if it's just in my head)... I feel clear and free and connected, more so than ever before.
As I become more and more granola, I'm becoming more and more of who I want to be. The person I believe I'm meant to be. There are so many big ideas swirling in my head that I decided to start a blog so I can get them out on paper.
I guess I've always known I was different. I remember being reminded to put on lipstick to give my face some color. I never was good at worrying about how I looked or how others looked. It seemed like such a trivial thing to worry about. Quite honestly, I still feel that way. All I think people really need to know about is what's inside. Why we're so wrapped up in vanity I'll never understand. I know that's crazy and not mainstream, but I'm happy like that! I think as I grow, I'm learning more and more that I have a strong desire to be rooted and connected and grounded with the earth and nature. But with that feeling comes the turmoil that I'm inevitably feeling... I sure enjoy sipping hot chocolate or a white mocha while perusing Target during the holidays! But as time goes on, more and more of what I want out of life is no longer a tangible object or possession. It's meaning and experiences and warm fuzzy feelings. Everyday when I'm walking to school to pick up the girls, I get the feeling that my heart is going to beat out of my chest with complete and overwhelming love, wanting desperately to see the very beings that give me so much joy and purpose in life. Even as I walk, I think about how corny that is. We've only been apart since the morning, but it's another day gone, they're another day older and it's time we just can't get back. It's a daily reminder to enjoy every moment.
It's these kids that may be the reason I go vegan. My dad was a vegetarian for much of my life and while I admire it, I certainly felt that it was crazy while I was growing up. A very drastic step to take and very Un-American not to indulge in Turkey at Thanksgiving... That is, until I had kids. That's when I started to think about what I purchased for them and started to read labels on packaged goods and do a little more research about how our food system works. I watched more than a few movies. Ever since I first started opening my eyes, I've only become more and more horrified.
I can't live my whole life thinking my choices won't affect those of my children. My choice to eat unsustainable, factory farmed meat will leave our children with nothing if it makes it that far. We need to tread softly on the planet and focus on what we can do to leave it in better condition than it is right now. The amount of meat our world demands simply can't keep up. Vegetables are sprayed with pesticides... the workers in the fields wear masks and suits to pick the very foods we consume...
There was a time in history where the 'organic' label wasn't necessary... but that's because everything was organic.
Material things don't make us happy and neither does money. It makes things easier but not when your things start to own you. There is a cost to each material item that goes far beyond it's monetary cost. Don't get me wrong, at this point, I don't see going down to 4 forks and 4 plates and one pair of underwear... but it's the idea, that life isn't about what we have but what we make of it.
Along the way, however, I've learned that wanting to change and actually changing are two different things. 30 years of doing things one way doesn't go away overnight... change takes effort and lots of trial and error. But now that it's been a few years, I'm at a point where enough is enough. It's time to transition to a sustainable, voluntarily simplistic lifestyle the best we can. We can't continue to live in the rat race and chase the dollar instead of living in the present and enjoying everything around us.
For so many years, I struggled. With what exactly, I'm not sure. I was just doing what everyone else was. Living the life we're expected to. But when I looked around me, I realized that wasn't how I should live my life. I don't want to just exist, I want to really live. I need to live for me and do what works for me. I'm learning not to dwell on the past but to focus on the future.
Like almost everyone, part of my past includes my weight. I wasn't upset being larger, I just didn't realize I could be something different. I just figured that's who I was and how I was supposed to be. I never even thought about dieting before last year. I realize now as the pounds slowly melt away that down below really is a smaller-ish person! Yes, I said smaller-ish... I realize I'll never be a size 2. The best part of this for me is that I'm not seeking a victory against the scale. This war I'm waging is in my heart and my mind. I won't reach some magical number on the scale and say my transformation is complete. It's so much more than that. I want a mind and body overhaul and I don't ever expect to say I'm done working on me.
I don't consider myself to be on a diet. I don't enjoy the word nor do I really believe in it. What I consider myself on isn't temporary, it's permanent and that's not really the definition of a diet as we know it. I'm working myself towards a permanent eating and lifestyle that matches what's in my heart. We are so removed from our food these days. We're unaware of where our food comes from, the grocery store has become our garden. These days I'm missing more than ever the vegetable garden boxes we have constructed at a few of the homes we've lived in. I have wonderful memories of working together to build the boxes and the kids helping to plant, water and harvest what grows... Everyday going out to see what's sprouting is an adventure. And it connects us to the earth.
I think I let myself forget how important being able to do that was... or maybe I didn't realize until it was gone. Our HOA doesn't allow crazy things like growing gardens but that can't stop me of dreaming of someday living on a piece of land where I can do what I want! I want to live nestled in the trees and see the stars on display each night and get in touch with nature. I want to cook with the girls what we harvest and let them experience the farm to table movement. If they choose a different path for themselves, that's OK. I feel it's important to teach them that as a society, we can't continue the destructive path we lead. We can't continue this crazy factory farming for meat. It isn't sustainable. (I'm not sure if I'll delve deeper into factory farming but trust me, it isn't pretty and isn't for the faint of heart).
This blog is really just be for me to think about things openly without judgement and work through why I feel passionately about certain things. I am not an expert but I'm definitely trying to find my way and see where my ideas fit in with the big picture.
As scary as it sounds, I'm loving that for myself, I'm awakening to what my purpose and passion might be.
So, all this being said, I'm not sure where my granola life will lead me, but I can assure you I will continue to shave and bathe. So we should be all good.
I can't live my whole life thinking my choices won't affect those of my children. My choice to eat unsustainable, factory farmed meat will leave our children with nothing if it makes it that far. We need to tread softly on the planet and focus on what we can do to leave it in better condition than it is right now. The amount of meat our world demands simply can't keep up. Vegetables are sprayed with pesticides... the workers in the fields wear masks and suits to pick the very foods we consume...
There was a time in history where the 'organic' label wasn't necessary... but that's because everything was organic.
Material things don't make us happy and neither does money. It makes things easier but not when your things start to own you. There is a cost to each material item that goes far beyond it's monetary cost. Don't get me wrong, at this point, I don't see going down to 4 forks and 4 plates and one pair of underwear... but it's the idea, that life isn't about what we have but what we make of it.
Along the way, however, I've learned that wanting to change and actually changing are two different things. 30 years of doing things one way doesn't go away overnight... change takes effort and lots of trial and error. But now that it's been a few years, I'm at a point where enough is enough. It's time to transition to a sustainable, voluntarily simplistic lifestyle the best we can. We can't continue to live in the rat race and chase the dollar instead of living in the present and enjoying everything around us.
I don't consider myself to be on a diet. I don't enjoy the word nor do I really believe in it. What I consider myself on isn't temporary, it's permanent and that's not really the definition of a diet as we know it. I'm working myself towards a permanent eating and lifestyle that matches what's in my heart. We are so removed from our food these days. We're unaware of where our food comes from, the grocery store has become our garden. These days I'm missing more than ever the vegetable garden boxes we have constructed at a few of the homes we've lived in. I have wonderful memories of working together to build the boxes and the kids helping to plant, water and harvest what grows... Everyday going out to see what's sprouting is an adventure. And it connects us to the earth.
I think I let myself forget how important being able to do that was... or maybe I didn't realize until it was gone. Our HOA doesn't allow crazy things like growing gardens but that can't stop me of dreaming of someday living on a piece of land where I can do what I want! I want to live nestled in the trees and see the stars on display each night and get in touch with nature. I want to cook with the girls what we harvest and let them experience the farm to table movement. If they choose a different path for themselves, that's OK. I feel it's important to teach them that as a society, we can't continue the destructive path we lead. We can't continue this crazy factory farming for meat. It isn't sustainable. (I'm not sure if I'll delve deeper into factory farming but trust me, it isn't pretty and isn't for the faint of heart).
As scary as it sounds, I'm loving that for myself, I'm awakening to what my purpose and passion might be.
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